I just finished the Shades of Magic trilogy after binging the whole series in the last two weeks. And I feel emotionally drenched.
Am I the only one who feels like this after finishing a series? All shaky and fragile and a complete mess.
I loved the books, they were fun and engaging. The world was interesting and captivating and I’m utterly in love most of the characters and their relationships. The angry bickering between Kell and Alucard was laugh-out-loud-funny, the tension between Rhy and Alucard was intriguing but the one relationship I like the most was the brotherly love between Kell and Rhy. It was heartbreaking at times and light and easy other times and I’m a complete mess after how the book ended.
Because it was a happy ending. Theres not doubt in my mind that this series had a happy ending. Lila got what she wanted, Alucard got what he wanted, Kell got what he wanted. The only one who wasn’t where he maybe would have liked to be was Rhy, but it wasn’t an unhappy ending for him, just a heavier one.
But I think its parting with these characters that’s the hardest thing. They have been my closest companions over the last couple of weeks and just like that- its over.
Putting back the last book on the shelf, leaving the world and the characters behind, sometimes feel like a heavier motion than it should be. A part of me feels like I’m abandoning the world as I look around and try to decided what to read next and an other part of me wants to hug the book tight and never let go.
But stories will stay with us if we let them. And that’s what I intent to do.
…and not giving a shit.
Lately I’ve been in kind of a rut. I feel like I’m walking over the same stretch of land and for every turn I make I wear down the ground a little more and it gets harder and harder to get out.
This has basically resulted in me not being able to find the will to care and I’m pretty much indifferent to most things and its just a mellow, middle ground all the time. The highs are few and far between and the lows are unexplained sadness. Things I cared about a couple of years ago I now just shrug away.
I know nothing will change if I don’t make the changes but I feel like I’m looking around a dark room with a tiny flashlight for the point. Because, what’s the point?
I have a caring and present family and a couple of good friends. I live a good life and I have very little to worry about. I’m so extremely privilege and have always been and it’s infuriating to not feel happy when I have so much.
This was a depressing post so I hope I’ll be back to a more upbeat topic next time.
Can you believe we’re already at the end of the year? The holiday spirit has arrived and I’m feeling festive. December is always a month when everything seems to be happening at the same time so I thought I would write down my plans for the month.
I’m planing to read the Shades of Magic trilogy by V.E. Schwab. I just started the first book and I’m currently 60 pages in and so far I’m intrigued. I’ve only heard good things so I don’t see a reason I wouldn’t love it.
I’m going to attempt making a Junk Journal for myself, from scratch. I’ve been watching a ton of junk journal videos and tutorials on youtube and I’m feeling mad inspired and ready to take on this project. December feels like the perfect month for being creative and journaling.
I need to start planing my 2018 bullet journal in time. Seriously me, you need to start planning your planning better. The last few months I’ve started planning the next month way too late and ended up with only half the months pages done when the 1st rolled around. And setting up a new year is so much bigger than just a single month, so I need to get on that. Post it notes are my friends.
Planing my sisters hen party. Need to get on that ASAP! Like yesterday.
Making my own Christmas cards, as I’ve said before, December = Creativity. Also equally important, send out the Christmas cards.
I’m sure I have other things I should be doing but these are the once I can come up with right now. I hope you also have some fun plans for December and that you are well and happy.
This was my 8th year participating and my 7th year winning. I have consistently participated in nanowrimo since 2010.
Life time word count: 467,800
This year: 102,144 words
Won on day 13
I wrote 2 stories:
Framed: 50168 words
Where We Belong: 51973 words
Best day: 6896 words (day 7)
Worst day: 2020 words (day 5)
Average: 3404 words/day
Over 2000 words: 30 days
Over 3000 words: 17 days
Over 4000 words: 8 days
Over 5000 words: 3 days
Over 6000 words: 1 day
Wordsprints: 49 times
Wordsprints: 20 hours, 20 minutes
Wordsprints: 34,527 words
I think that’s all the statistics I’ve kept track of over the last month. It’s been a crazy and very roller coaster-y month but still a good one.
This will be my last nanowrimo update of the year but I’ll keep updating the blog on other things during the rest of the year and then we’ll start the craziness over again next October.
It’s December 1st and its the calm before the storm. For the first couple of days in December I’ll just relax and chill before everything Christmas begins.
November was crazy good this year. Even thou I hit a slump in the third week I still managed to pull through and hit 102144 words. I’m going to do a big statistical post later in the month but for now I just want to say:
I made it!
I’ve already started thinking about next year and right now my brain is yelling at me to not do a 100K month again. But we’ll see in about 11 months time.
What I can say is that I’ve really enjoyed blogging this time of year and documenting it all. I’ve had to stick to my plans and promises in a way that never would have happened if I hadn’t written them down on the internet. So I just want to thank the internet for keeping me accountable.
I hope everyone had a great November, no matter how much you wrote, and that December has started just as great.